There’s a quiet battle I don’t always talk about.
I think a lot of people feel it, but few admit it out loud.
I don’t want to be famous.
The idea makes me shudder a bit, actually.
The scrutiny. The pressure. The eyes that see too much and the voices that assume even more.
Fame feels like being constantly lit up under a microscope. A version of success that comes with commentary you didn’t ask for.
But…
I also kind of want to be famous.
Or rather, I want the things that fame seems to bring.
I want to be seen.
I want to be heard.
I want to be respected — not just in the private corners of kind people’s hearts, but loudly. Publicly.
The pull of being known
I want someone to say, “Her work helped me.”
I want my voice to carry further than the room I’m in.
And yes, I want to be paid well for what I create.
Not as an ego stroke — but because I’ve known what it’s like to struggle.
To give more than I had to give.
To live quiet and small because the world made me feel like that was safer.
So here I am — craving visibility and fearing it at the same time.
What a strange place to stand.
The fear behind the spotlight
I’m not scared of being good at what I do.
I’m scared of the weight that comes with being seen doing it.
I want to be the voice in someone’s head that reminds them they’re enough —
but not the one who has to pretend she always is.
I want to be able to pay my bills, create beautiful things,
and have people say, “Lorraine gets it.”
But I don’t want to lose my peace in the process.
What I’ve realised…
Maybe it’s not about fame at all.
Maybe it’s about impact.
Maybe I don’t need millions of eyes on me —
I just need a few people who really feel it when I speak.
Maybe I don’t want to be watched…
I want to be felt.
Heard. Understood. Trusted.
And maybe I don’t want to be famous…
I want to be free.
To do my work.
To rest when I need to.
To be celebrated without being dissected.
To live in my purpose — not perform it.
So here’s what I’m learning:
I can crave recognition without craving chaos.
I can want to be known without needing to be everywhere.
I can chase wealth without chasing fame.
And I can choose peace — even when I still ache to be seen.
If this resonates with you, you’re not alone.
You’re not confused or attention-seeking.
You’re just a soul who wants to live loudly and safely at the same time.
And maybe, just maybe… that’s possible.
🔒 Confidence Unlocked Takeaway:
Impact over attention.
Depth over popularity.
Peace over performance.
Confidence Unlocked 